over-ture:

(by d a b i t o)

Sometimes things just don’t go your way, does it? Even what i planned to do to my tumblr failed. No wonder things doesn’t go my way. Never mind about that.

Being in a relationship always seems so sweet and all as portrayed on the big screens, like The Vow or even Titanic. But what goes underneath is what that matters. It directly relates to what you and your partner will be like in future. Apart from that, there are many more factors to consider.

One main point is to know yourself. Knowing yourself means knowing who you are, what you really want and most importantly, not build yourself around the other party. This is so, because when that party leaves you behind, everything comes crumbling down. Which happen to be one of the most fatal mistake i made. Naturally, i am the type of person to just slowly build my life around the person, because i feel happy doing so, contented and satisfied. But at this crucial moment, i realized i did it all wrong. It will eventually leave me empty and dry.

Secondly, it feels that you are strangling your other party. This is where you feel like you cause the one you love so much pain, so much misery, preventing them from their social life, disrupting their family life and even causing problems to their personal life. Shouldn’t it be about caring and loving for the person instead of that? No matter how much it hurts, would it be better to let the person go? So that the person would be much happier without you? I always think of that, but i couldn’t let go because of love, too much of it to let go. Yet, the questions arises that am i doing the right thing? For chaining and not letting go? Thinking and Thinking…..

Even thinking about these, it doesn’t make me feel better about anything. The insecurities rises from the smallest of things, to even feeling pathetic about myself. I found myself alone in a empty house, typing this while all the thoughts go through my head. Is it because we are too different? 

Me being one that isn’t very social, not much close friends, much less best friends, or even people whom i can relate to. And on the other hand, they are much more social, surrounded by close friends, different family culture, and having so many people to relate to them, although it’s a bit worrying with that. Maybe its because it so different, that it makes it so much harder. Or being so different, bounds us together yet makes us trip and fall. So what should i do?

Why is loving seems so easy yet so hard to grasp?

heart-for-two:

foxycyrus:

04/15/1912, 2AM, North Atlantic.
100 years ago, the RMS Titanic set sail carrying 2,223 people. 
And exactly 100 years ago today, Titanic sank at the bottom of the North Atlantic Ocean causing the death of 1,514 souls after colliding with an iceberg a few hours earlier.
Today we remember all those who went down with the ship.
RIP Titanic and its victims. 

woah,a century ago.